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i hate life!!! N I FEEL SOOOOO FUCKING STUPID MAN!! SO DAMN STUPID WHY AM I FALLING AGAIN N HURTING AGAIN!! WHY MUST HE HURT ME THE SAME WAY AS JOEL DID WHY!! WHY? DOUSHITE? DOUSHITE!!!!!!!!!!! AARRGGGHHHHHHHHHHH WHY AM I SO STUPID..I FEEL BROKEN,BETRAYED HURT N ANGRY...I FEEL SO WEAK N I HATE FEELING WEAK AS IM NOT...! at least after meetin them today later on met the gang with kat haha had so much fun. they are all as crazy as ever n i MISS THEM SOO MUCH!!! haha mahen today seekin attention my gosh he kneeled in front of me...than durin late dinner..the rest danik,jun n ah ma went to toilet n picked up viki n urm..i put ice on their chair so funny.. haha than too bad it did not happen sigh... they did not fall for it than later on we celebrated vikis birthday...today in e end still ended grat!! i love my gang!