HOLIDAY!! and complaining

YES!! At last! Exams are over! Now its PARTYING! Im seriously having the time of my life right now...my darling cousin is out and we are having a hell of a time..woots! Tomorrow we're going to Escape..weepeee...cant wait...hmm...anonymous..thanks for that sweet entry but please do leave your name...ive had bad pasts with these anonymous people and i tend to get violent with them...not saying you of course..i might be suffering but that was than..im over the hatred..well most of it..and again, IM SO HAPPY! Im over the hatred i had for my ex-church though they don't deserve my forgivness but if i don't and keep the hate..im the one suffering..hee..and well my schoolmates,classmates,i cant give a shit bout them! im just not keeping the hatred in me..its too tiring and i need some sunlight for a while before i go back into my black evil world. hahahahahaha...i guess i'll never be that innocent ever again since my heart is already half black..i myself feel evil..i remember i used to joke with my best friend that what happens if one day i turn evil? and now..i just feel myself turning so violent...even now i still feel a part of me thats evil or something like that..gosh..but the only person i'll never forgive is tat fucking bitch! never! the day im interested in her being is if shes dead or i see her and we have a confrontation. Another thing, now even after the whole church shit, i still feel like christians are hypocrites....sigh... my life sucks!