stressed...emtionless...fucked up!

today is saturday. dad is in Penang, mom is playing majong n im at home. currently watching black beauty and blogging. gosh! im so bored!! i want to go out!!!! go out with my friends...im so bored.....gosh! hw can anyone be more bored than me i say! This whole damn week was shitty...my friends in my class n i kept fallin sick..if its not cough its than for me stomach cramps.damn it!! i think its no use tryng to try being there for a person who does not want my help....i think i still like him but his heart is no more with me. its with someone else that dont deserve it! sigh..i really cant be bothered...i still need a partner. i need my partner....i need freedom.i need away from this world..this country...i need to go somewhere else away from all people n start over....and hw i wish it would be soon..sigh...i feel so trapped..here i am in somewhere that is nothing but sad memories except for my friends now tat i care bout and they care bout me.. i feel so happy and so thankful for them..anyway they are better than those motherfucking bluffs from cfc. espically my ex-cell leader..don wanna mention names!!...HAHAHAHAHA!! i love u Dira,Jal,Jun,Mahen,Ben,Kat, mike,isaac,. You guys rock my world!