curious

i just logged into my friendster and i just realised..why issit that peope who once made your life hell now wants to be yon friends? once who made once life in sec school a living hell by scolding or makin or backstabbing...sigh...whats up with that? and now one of them wants to be my friends back...so hilarious.well if i have the time i will say this in her face..FUCK OFF!! n issit so exciting to see once a nerdy,fucked-up,wierd,easy to bully,hated gal smoking? oh. i know.They must have seen my real personal...haha...well..this real personal says to those who has made her life hell...sadly...go eat shit!!wahahaha..okie done

stressed...emtionless...fucked up!

today is saturday. dad is in Penang, mom is playing majong n im at home. currently watching black beauty and blogging. gosh! im so bored!! i want to go out!!!! go out with my friends...im so bored.....gosh! hw can anyone be more bored than me i say! This whole damn week was shitty...my friends in my class n i kept fallin sick..if its not cough its than for me stomach cramps.damn it!! i think its no use tryng to try being there for a person who does not want my help....i think i still like him but his heart is no more with me. its with someone else that dont deserve it! sigh..i really cant be bothered...i still need a partner. i need my partner....i need freedom.i need away from this world..this country...i need to go somewhere else away from all people n start over....and hw i wish it would be soon..sigh...i feel so trapped..here i am in somewhere that is nothing but sad memories except for my friends now tat i care bout and they care bout me.. i feel so happy and so thankful for them..anyway they are better than those motherfucking bluffs from cfc. espically my ex-cell leader..don wanna mention names!!...HAHAHAHAHA!! i love u Dira,Jal,Jun,Mahen,Ben,Kat, mike,isaac,. You guys rock my world!

stressed...emtionless...fucked up!