Sigh

as u have seen from my previous entries...im veri pissed n guess wat..last night i called him..to talk...to show love and he repaid me this shit..i asked him last night this how it went..

im cuttin short...

kellynne: is our relationship okie?
wilbert:ya why do u ask??

and than he complained bout him sick n everything which i said okie n than he smsedme this..


actually to tell you the truth,when i go out with u i find it wierd..why?i do not understand?

than i snapped after all tat so all the cold treatment n the non-caring n only me must care led down to it tat he found it WIERD!!WAT THE FUCKIN SHIT HOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cried like shit last night.....n i did somethin stupid n somethin tat really i have not done in e long time unless im pushed to the limits.... ------> [SENSORED] pretty huh...so continue..after this n after crying.cant believe he had to be e one tat i cried for...sucks man...anyways..so cause of this shit i slept at 4..woke up went to church alone ...n tat fuckin asshole called me today when i was in e bus n asked me where am i? i told him coldly im on my way..he say where..i said bus than he said where..on the way to meet him i said no...he offed the fuckin call..than he smsed me.are u angry?? IS IT NOT TAT FUCKIN OBVIOUS!! IF IM NOT ANGRY WILL I SAY ANNOUCE IT TO THE WORLD OH IM ANGRY!! LIKE WAT THE SHIT! ASK THIS KIND OF QUESITON!!! THAN NOT ENOUGH..LATER..ON...AT THIS TIME... 3.35 PM.... from wilbert: UR ANGRY RIGHT. OKAH. I GOT SOMETHING ELSE TO TELL U I HATE UR STINKING ATTITUDE I HATE THE WAY U TREAT PEOPLE I HATE THE WAY U THINK ABOUT CHURCH PEOPLE AND U REALLY NEED GOD" is wat he smsed me...why i treat people like this is because THEY FUCKIN HURT ME FIRST! THEY FUCKIN DID NOT ALLOW ME TO FEEL ACCEPTED AND HE SIDED THOSE WHO MADE ME HELL!! HE DID NOT KNOW WAT THE REAL REASON WAS N HE ACCUSED ME OF ALL THIS SHIT!!! IM SO FUCKIN ANGRY N IM SOO SAD...WAT I FEEL LIKE DOIN NOW IS GOIN TO HIM..SLAP HIM..HOLD HIM BY E NECK..N RIP HIS FUCKIN TROAT OUT OF HIS FUCKING NECK!!! TELL ME WHEN A GF IS ANGRY THE BF SHOULE BE THE ONE TO CONSOL HER NOT SCOLD HER..AND ONE MORE THING...WHEN I WAS ANGRY I WAS ANGRY ON THE WAY HE TREATED ME AS A GF NOT ON HIS CHARACTER....I DID NOT DIG OUT ANY SHIT FROM HIM..N YET..IN ONE DAY HE DIGGED OUT TAT MUCH SHIT N THREW IT IN MY FACE WITHOUT KNOWIN THE REAL REASON..WHY I THINK of our church like this..why i treat some of them like this..cause they did it to me first!!! my heart is soo pain now..i feel like cuttin myself again......why must this piece of shit be the one to hurt me!! why! fuck him all the way to hell..n he still called me bt i offed the call n i smsed him this.. cold n sweet.. yes wat can i do for you. tts all...sobz....after wat he said he think i can forgive him? wat he smsed was veri sensitive its between those who hurt me alone n not concernin him! wat fuckin right does he have to tell me off like this! ITS NONE OF HIS FUCKIN BUSINESS..THE PIECELESS SHIT OF SHIT.. THE BO LAN JIAO BO ANYTIHNG ARRGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I FUCKING HATE U !!!!!!!!!!!GO EAT SHIT GO DIE U MOTHERLESS PIECE OF SHIT U MOTHER FUCKER YOU BASTARD U SON OF A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!