i feel stupid..sad..n aiyo..dunno la..

a guy my friend sent me a sweet wrting that day bout being best friends...i felt so touched..than after that(cutting short) he just started askin me out when before he never really did..wed was movies n than today was his house...n both days i did not make it..he always asked at the wrong time ...sigh..n i thought somehow even my friends said there was a possibility he likes me but he has someone..so now i dunno what to do...but all i know is to forget all this n make it go back to norm..that than i won be hurt...la..FUCK IT!!

unforgettable

im stupid
im blind
but i love you still...
no matter how i try to forget
and convince..you still stay
forever and now etched in my memory
what should i do??
love sucks...i never wanna love again!
its just too painful..i cant love till your out
of me life forever!than shall i dare..
but for now..im trying to help myself to ask you
to FUCK OFF!!!

today

haha..today there really was no school n damn was i tired...so went to school thinkin there were lessons in e end only bio was in active...tired.......lame....todays not bad though...kat came over n ate pizza and i scared her with cris angel..haha..than later went to bathe n change to meet Ira and kat helped me with make-up thanks sweets...than laterwent out with Ira to lot 1...each bought an anklet..hee...had dinner talked crap my poor dear..misses her ex...sigh..wish i was in love...

re

i miss YOU!!!!KIYO!!!!mina wa....i miss you...sobz...I WANNA GO HOME!!! someone pls put me out of my misery...please...tell me its real tell me im me...help me go home...please...